Silly Old Me

I never meant to post so late today, but somehow I had come to believe that I posted hours ago, and only now when I went to read over what I'd written did I see it was still yesterday's entry. What a silly.

It was an okay day. I know that I can expect a period of unpleasantness every day until this is under some kind of control; it started last night around 7:30. Although I had it to one degree or another until about 9:30 this morning, I did get several good hours of sleep in and among the troubles -- that seems like as good a name for it as anything -- so in general, it's okay. And hey: I went to Target this morning! Do we need any other indication that I'm on the mend?

As for school tomorrow, I have my little bag packed with all of my potions and preparations to deal with anything I need to deal with, and I will pack my little lunch in the morning. (Gatorade, two bologna sandwiches -- one for lunch and one if I get hungry later on -- and soy vanilla pudding. And a big pill.) I have called in sick for the morning but made it clear that I'm coming in the afternoon. I am so psyched! Can anyone even believe this?

I'm not even put off by the prospect of snow, which I believe is 3 to 5 inches for tomorrow morning. Well, ick, of course, but I'm not going out at the crack of rush hour, and I'll have more than enough time to clean off my car, and I'm only driving one mile for gosh sake, and it's winter and it's New Jersey, and I've lived here all my life, and I can deal. I also have kind of nice new comfy boots to wear which haven't gotten much of a workout yet, and a very warm jacket. The only thing that would be nice would be if my hair didn't look like a rat's nest by the time I get to work, but given the weather and my desperate need for a haircut, that may be beyond my control, which means I'm not giving it a second thought. It will be what it is.

I'm developing a nice que sera, sera attitude here in general. (For those among you unfamiliar with Doris Day, that's from a song of hers and means "what will be will be.") I have pretty much decided that dieting to lose weight has ceased to be a part of my future life. My diet choices will be limited by what I'm able to eat, and I can deal with portion size on my own, and that's that. One of the side effects of what I've got here, in extreme cases, is actually malnutrition, because the body can't absorb the nutrients you're eating. Well, screw that. I need to eat healthy stuff and nourish my body. Some people with this lose frightening amounts of weight. Not that I anticipate that, but weight as an aesthetic thing is no longer in my vocabulary.

Well, let's just hope I get enough sleep tonight. I hope to get to school between 10 and 11, and stay as long as I can manage it. I'll report back from the front tomorrow.

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