Thursday, July 31, 2008

Just a Brief Rant

I've added another quotation to my page header, courtesy of John at ... and no cheese. Because I think it's really important for people to read, I'm going to put it here as well, including the itty bit I took out for space reasons and its full context. I bolded the notable part.

“Naturally the common people don't want war; neither in Russia, nor in England, nor in America, nor in Germany. That is understood. But after all, it is the leaders of the country who determine policy, and it is always a simple matter to drag the people along, whether it is a democracy, or a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is to tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same in any country.

Hermann Goering, for those of you who haven't taken high school history yet, was Hitler's right-hand man. For anyone who still thinks there's nothing weird going on in this country, let this article jog your memory.

Okay, I'm done.

My sister took me to the eye doctor today; my eyes were dilated about 12:30 and as of now -- a few minutes past six -- my pupils are still so big that barely a sliver of eye color is showing. I'm afraid to go outside until it's dark. I always react like this, as K did when she had her eyes examined the other night. It looks pretty creepy.

After that we went to Panera for lunch and then the Sibs wanted to pick up a gift card at the Apple Store, but there was a dress store literally in between Panera and Apple and we loitered there for god knows how long, but she got a dress to wear to her son's wedding in September. I still have nothing; I really must start looking next week.

We came back to my house and I helped her set up a bunch of things on her new Mac, including Google Reader, which I think she still doesn't get, but she will. The new Mac OS is very nice, but I'm not sorry I didn't upgrade to it; I don't think it's really that different.

My tummy is so strange today, I can't really say bad, just strange. But I am tired. And tomorrow I have to get up with the alarm (!) because I have an appointment at 9:15, and I've mostly been sleeping until eight or so all summer, which is delightful, but I don't think it would get me out of the house in time.

WATCHING FAMILY GUY :: ENTRY #1819
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

My Vinyl Childhood

I wrote yesterday that I felt I had turned a corner in this summer, but I didn't elaborate. What I meant was that I feel that now I'm ready to take on a couple of the projects I hadn't even touched yet. First thing I did was cross "Basement" off my list. I really don't care that much.

After having a wonderful facial this morning, I came home and had a bit of lunch and then decided to connect the USB turntable that the Hubs got me for Christmas. It was a very minor adventure, which first required cleaning off the stuff I had piled on top of the box, following the directions to put the hardware together, and finally, hoping that the USB cable would reach and I wouldn't have to run right out and get an extension. (It did.)

The documentation was poor -- no surprise there -- but I managed to assemble the tone arm and the counterweight because I know what tone arms and counterweights are. I think that anyone who didn't grow up with turntables would have found it more challenging.

I did, of course, grow up with turntables. My sister and I must have had some kiddie record player, because I remember that I had two or three records that I played endlessly. Or probably, that I played endlessly on rainy days when I was alone and not outside playing with other kids. One of my records, I recall, was bright red, sort of see-through, and played all the songs from Pinocchio. It may have been an official Disney recording, I don't know. When I listened to it, I acted out the whole story, every part. I was probably more exhausted afterwards than if I had played outside.

At some point, I think while we still lived in the apartment, we got a copy of the original Broadway cast recording of Peter Pan, with Mary Martin. I have probably written before about the essential part this show and music played in my young life. We adored it, the Sibs and I, and our family friends Philip and Patti. We had seen it on TV (I think it was aired twice) and it was our Bible, our guide to life. We played it out as a group, with Philip, the only boy, playing both Peter and Captain Hook. My sister was Wendy, because Philip loved her. His sister was Tinkerbell, because Tinkerbell dies. I was Michael, because I was the smallest, and generally also all the Lost Boys.

Shortly after we moved to B-Town, so I was 8, Jack went out and bought *gasp* a stereo. We had this knotty pine, very fifties den at the lowest level of the house -- a split level -- and it had closets and cabinets and built-ins sort of hidden all over it, camouflaged by the slats in the paneling and the knots in the pine. One of these was big enough for a TV or something, and had a slide-out shelf on the bottom; Jack came home one night with a so-called "portable" stereo and installed it in this cabinet. It was portable because you could attach the speakers back to the top of it and buckle them down and carry the whole thing by a handle on the side, like a heavy suitcase. I think he got this one because it fit in the cabinet. Our speakers came off permanently and were connected by ungodly long wires that ran around behind the paneling to the hidden cubby holes were the speakers were stashed. And Jack began to purchase his record collection.

He didn't go crazy with this as, say, I would have, but he ended up with maybe 30 records. (He and Shirl still had their stash of about a half dozen 78's, which they didn't play on the stereo because they were so heavy.) What Jack mostly liked was Mantovani. Anybody remember Mantovani? This was elevator music before it ever occurred to anyone to play music in an elevator. These were light listening, orchestral versions of just about any song you could imagine. Mantovani must have recorded thousands of albums. Putting on a Mantovani album was the sure way to get the Sibs and me out of the den.

They also bought several original cast recordings of Broadway shows. (But surprisingly, they bought no opera records, thank god, although both of them were opera fans.) When I was old enough to be trusted to use the stereo -- and I can guarantee you that I used it before I had permission to -- these Broadway show records were my meat. It was just like Pinocchio; I listened to these albums again and again and I played all the parts, kind of like karaoke. My favorite of all was The Sound of Music, which Jack took us to see on Broadway around that time. The original cast was long gone, but it was my first Broadway show; I got all dressed up and even wore my hated black patent leather Mary Janes.

I started listening to contemporary music before that, though, maybe in the late fifties, because I had a sister four and a half years older than I was who rushed home from school every day to watch American Bandstand. Around the same time, Grandma Sadie gave her a transistor radio for her birthday, and we would surreptitiously listen to the local top 40 stations (WMCA and then, WMGM) at night when we were in bed in our shared room. Radio fueled record purchases. I remember being in a store with my mother and sister -- J.J. Newberry's, kind of like Woolworth's -- and my sister begging my mother to buy her something and my mother finally giving in but saying then she had to buy me one, too. The Sibs got a 45 of "Theme From a Summer Place." I got a 45 of "Running Bear." (Somehow, I've ended up with all of my sister's 45's, as well as all of my own, some of which are here:



I remember Christmas, seventh or eight grade, and my friend Jessica getting Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme as a gift. We must have all been just starting to get into albums around that time, instead of singles. Although, to backtrack to another memorable moment, I remember coming home for lunch one day when I was in fifth grade, Jessica was with me that day for some reason, and my mother pulled out a surprise: she had been in Alexander's that morning, the local department store, and had stood on line to get me this:



which is now, of course, hanging on my wall. So I guess I had a few albums before eighth grade, most or all of them Beatles albums, I would think.

I saved and saved and saved and when I was about 15, I went to J.C. Penny and I bought myself a small portable stereo record player, which of course, I still have in the basement:



(The little blue thing on top.) I believe it cost about $22.00. It served me incredibly well up until my sophomore year of college, when I got a "real" stereo system for about $129.00, as I recall.

Anyway, by the time I went to college, my tastes had expanded somewhat, and I had a respectable collection of James Taylor, John Denver, and Carole King. I was also quite fond of Cat Stevens, Harry Chapin (may have been later) and all the configurations of Simon and Garfunkel. I think that by this time I had also somehow claimed all my parents' showtunes albums for my own, since they never listened anymore and the old stereo was gone anyway. I had also become a big fan of Bob Dylan, because when I was still in junior high, my sister had this incredibly obnoxious boyfriend who would bring over his Dylan albums and insist on playing them, for which they commandeered my little blue record player, so I got to stay in the room. Loved the music, hated the boyfriend, although I must say, I like him much more now that he and my sister have been married for coming on ten years.

Well, as you know, I never throw anything out, so all my records are -- of course -- in the basement, along with the Hubs'; there are more of his, actually, and his are more true rock than mine are. Anyway, it was tough finding an album to try on the new turntable because by now, I pretty much have all the music I ever wanted, either on CD or from iTunes. In fact, I could only find one album of mine that I didn't already have in iTunes:



It must be 50 years old. Well, the turntable works fine and all, and when it plays, I can hear every snap, crackle and pop that I remember from vinyl records that have been played again and again and again. It was a very comfortable and familiar experience, and really took me back, as you can see. Alas, Pinochhio is long gone, but Mary Martin lives forever.

WATCHING L/O :: ENTRY #1818
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Not Much

Not much is going on, but I feel like I may have turned a corner on this summer, not in a bad way. I went into school today and had a very pleasant and productive meeting with the principal. I also spoke with the Martian and cleared the air on that whole issue.

What was interesting about my talk with the Martian is that I felt completely like my real self. I had no anger towards her whatsoever, nor defensiveness. She appeared a little fragile and even frail. As I result, I went totally into protective mode, which is more like the real me. I would never come on strong with someone I perceive as weak or needy. Anyway, I apologized again, she thanked me and said continued apologies are unnecessary, we agreed to start fresh from here. Which is all I need.

Again, I think I'm feeling emotionally better today because I'm feeling physically not too bad. My shoulder isn't bothering me, my tummy has been quiet today, and what I thought was a cold seems more like allergies today (which is to say, it's not getting worse, like a cold does.) I took a reasonably pleasant two hour nap today.

The unfortunate moment of the day was when I put on a shirt to go out in and it was tight in the shoulders and didn't close over my massive bosom. I'm wearing one of those bras that has its own shape, so to speak; it could stand up on its own, so I'm hoping its that and not, heaven help me, more weight. I'm afraid to get on the scale as it is.

I am making more of an effort to finish the book I've been reading forever, and I got As I Lay Dying out of the library today while I was in school. I read The Sound and Fury when I was in college, which left me feeling no need whatsoever to read more Faulkner, but R thinks I should try this one. We'll see how it goes.

And that's it. I have a facial on tap for tomorrow morning. This is certainly The Summer of Me.

WATCHING TWO AND A HALF MEN :: ENTRY #1817
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Monday, July 28, 2008

Always Be Prepared

Wasn't much of a day today; my MRI was postponed because they were doing some kind of equipment maintenance. So I'll do that on Friday.

I did a couple of little things today, and then my sister called and asked if I wanted to join her on a little shopping excursion. So that was fun, and she even drove. She's supposed to be driving me to the eye doctor on Thursday too, so I can finally get my eyes dilated for an exam. Big plans.

So I can go to therapy tomorrow if my cold isn't worse than it is now -- I called her to be sure -- and then I'm off to the high school to talk to the principal and possibly the Martian. I was a little concerned because some of the materials I'd like to refer to are in the library, and I won't have time to go there first, but between my flash drive and remote login, I managed to gather and print out most of what I sneed. I hate to be unprepared for any kind of meeting. I always like to go in with a folder with more printouts than I'll possibly be asked for, but when asked, I can always pull out just I need and hand it over. Also, at some point before school starts, I will need to use the library computer to update the library website, since I don't have FrontPage or anything else I'm happy with on the Mac. So I'm bringing what I need to do that tomorrow, if I decide to stay once I'm already there. It all depends on my talk with the boss.

And that's my story for today.

WATCHING FRIENDS :: ENTRY #1816
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Back in the Saddle Again

I was talking to OldFriend on the phone before, thus completing my keeping-in-touch plan, when my phone service died. I called her back on the cell and after a few minutes, lost the signal. Called her back on the house phone and then it died again.

It took me nearly 45 minutes of calling the cable company tech line on the cell, complete with unplugging things and modems falling on my head, to find out that Internet and phone service were out in our area, and to get the house phone calls forwarded to the cell when this happens. Virtually the moment everything was completed, and I had straightened the picture on the wall that was a casualty of the falling modem, everything came back. Ergo, here I am.

I thought I was getting sick last night with a sore throat, and I woke up with a very sore throat and a headache, and sore ears. But once I was up and around and had breakfast, it got better, so I'm figuring allergies instead of strep. (It was a really sore throat.) I need to be careful about strep and stuff because my therapist is in a chemo cycle, and I don't want to go anywhere near her if I have anything, even though that's not until Tuesday, but I want to be careful.

I ended up doing not that much today, what a surprise, but when I woke up from my nap I was delighted to see that K had folded and put away all the towels that had just finished in the dryer; I totally hate putting laundry away, especially towels. And once I was up, I actually did do some vacuuming and straightening of the living room, and a little in the kitchen, too. I'll vacuum the family room tomorrow and relocate The Cat in the Hat, who was sitting on top of a step-stool that now has the modem and router on its seat. Seriously, I have got a lot of crap in this room. This house.

Ah, all the little flashing lights on the modem make me happy. But I think I'll check and make sure that the phone works.

WATCHING PETER PAN (DISNEY) :: ENTRY #1815
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Friday, July 25, 2008

Keeping Up

I've gotten in a lot of good keeping up with folk time in the last 24 hours. And everything is kind of running into everything else, not in a bad way.

In therapy the other day, we devised a plan to forestall some of the tension that might be involved in the start of the new school year for me. One part was that I would call the principal and go in and discuss a few issues with him. The other is that I would follow up on the Martian's email that said we would talk things over when things settle down by asking her if she wanted to go have lunch and see if we could totally put that behind us.

I had to put this off for a day or two because I was waiting for a call from the orthopedist's office, which was scheduling an MRI of my shoulder. Yes, another MRI, to see if I have a bone spur, which means a bit of surgery could be in order. (Note: I am not having this surgery. Not. Having. But if I do have a bone spur and in a year or two I can't live with it, then I'll know and maybe I'll do it. Maybe when I retire. I am not wasting sick days on shoulder surgery when I might need them for Crohn's, especially when the pain is like 2 on a scale of 10.)

Ahem. Anyway, the MRI is Monday morning, and before I could call the high school, the principal's secretary called me to make an appointment because he wants to discuss a few library issues, so, TA DA! And when I'm there, I can talk to the Martian and make my lunch proposal. I'm going in Tuesday morning right after therapy, so I will be strong.

In the meantime, I needed to call the Colleague, to whom I have not spoken in several weeks, because, you know, she works right there too, and anyway, I wanted to know what was going on in her life. A nice, almost hour-long talk with her last night, and then an unusual talk later with my sister. (I'm coming back to that.)

I also hadn't heard from the Chum in several days, which was odd, because I had sent her this long email describing my summer's travails and all I had gotten was a quick note saying she would write more when she could. But she called this morning and said they've been having power and Internet problems, so she called, and I had another nice long talk.

If I catch up with OldFriend tonight or tomorrow, I'll be all set, telephone- and catching up-wise. I don't talk to anyone else, really.

Ah, the Sibs. I'm not really sure how to tell this story; I don't think I've mentioned it yet. Let me see.

There's a commercial that runs on TV here, like a public service announcement, about New Jersey Public Schools and how wonderful they are. Appearing in the commercial is a young doctor who is a graduate of a New Jersey urban school system. He's doing very well in life, so they decided to make another commercial with him, or maybe a series of commercials. His parents will be in one, anyway. So they asked him who the inspirational teacher in his life was, because they wanted to make a commercial with him and that teacher.

Turns out it was his tenth grade English teacher. My sister.

So she filmed her commercial yesterday and told me about it when she got home, which wasn't until maybe 8:30. I am so incredibly proud of her. I can't wait to see her on TV!

WATCHING GILMORE GIRLS :: ENTRY #1814
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

What I'm Watching

For a very long time now, I've had a little field at the end of each post that says "What I'm Watching" or "Watching" or something like that. I don't know if anyone ever notices it, but my TV is always on, so I make a note of what's there. I'd guess that about 50% of my entries tell you that I'm watching The Golden Girls.

I have a very satisfying relationship with television. I've mentioned before that I was born the week TV Guide first published; I'm one week older than Lucy Ricardo's baby. TV has always been there for me, and given my propensity to remember useless details about a lot of things, my knowledge of television since the 1950's is somewhat encyclopedic. (You know how I can always remember to spell encyclopedia? I sing along with Jiminy Cricket in my head.)

My most recent best friend on TV is George Lopez, which I may have also mentioned. I still watch the two episodes on Nick every night, although by now I have seen all of them (except one); I had started watching these kind of half-heartedly last fall. But when I was sick in December-January, this show somehow became very special to me. Each night, I would settle in, hoping to sleep at least a little, and when the music started: All.My.Friends.Know the Low Rider -- I would think, damn, made it through one more day. It was my marker.

I watched The Golden Girls sporadically when it was originally on; I thought it was funny and well done, but I didn't get into it. About ten years ago, K started watching it because a friend of hers -- Michael -- told her it was the funniest show on TV. Since I often found myself watching whatever my kids were watching, I got into it with her. And yes, I have seen every episode and I watch it every day -- many times -- and I have it all on DVD. Michael, now living, I think, in a gay commune in Hawaii, or some such thing, probably doesn't get Lifetime TV, but I'm guessing that he's sad today too, as are we all.

Estelle Getty was ill and not herself for several years, and so the news of her death brings a sense of relief that a loved one is at peace. I'm not saying that I feel about a TV character (or actor) the way I would about a family member, of course, but I'm saying that Sophia Petrillo et al. have played a role in my life. Sophia, in particular, who reminds me a lot of my grandmother (as millions of others will say also) and who was kind of an everyday elderly stable presence as I watched my mother decline and pass away.

There are articles about her everywhere, but I haven't seen something recently that I read about her years ago. Before she was ever cast on The Golden Girls, when she was an actress on Broadway, she was an activist against AIDS and on behalf of gay rights. This was in the early 80's. Watch the episodes of the show that deal with either of these subjects. I saw the AIDS one yesterday; Estelle Getty took the role of the ignorant one, the one who was afraid to drink out of a cup that someone who might have AIDS had used. It was so not who she was, but she used it and did it well to show how foolish such a thing is. She was such a wonderful actress, and a fine human being as well, I believe.

So that's my tribute to Sophia, whom I will continue to watch every day, for many years to come, I hope. She's my role model. If you gotta get old, hey, that's the way to do it.


WATCHING GOLDEN GIRLS :: ENTRY #1813
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Wearing the Uniform

Rather than relate today's medical saga, I'm going to tell you a story that involves a bit of family history and what seems to be a family quirk. Let's begin.

These two people are my great-grandparents, my father's father's parents.



A couple of lookers, eh? Here's the thing: Rasel was Shlaime Baer's second wife, so he had I don't know how many children altogether, five of them with her. It seems she carried some intense DNA along from her own parents, because for a couple of generations, Rasel's siblings' female progeny, all looked like this:



Clearly, I'm talking about the large-jawed women in the back, not the pretty woman seated on the ground with the child. (She comes into the story later.)

The men, on the other hand, were all good looking, and not the same; for example, my grandfather Louie when he was about 19:



And my father Jack when he was about the same age:



At this point, you can almost see more of Jack's mother in him, the pretty lady in the other picture, above. Anyway, the weird thing is that the men in the family all aged into virtually the same face. This isn't a great picture, but here's Louie old:



And Jack:



(That's Wonderful Niece with him, btw, about ten years ago.) When I was a kid, I saw others of my grandfather's cousins who had virtually the same face as my father. (My grandfather was gone by this time, but I had seen many pictures.) Which was weird.

Okay. So, last week K and I went for lunch one day to a nearby IHOP and we sat in the booth and I could see that she was staring at someone who was sitting across from us but who was just a bit out of my range of vision. I leaned over and she whispered "There's a man there who looks just like Grandpa, but not as good looking." I casually turned and there he was, an elderly heavy set man with my father's hair and bushy eyebrows and the face shape so characteristic of Rasel's family. What he lacked were the distinctive clear blue eyes that they all had. He was close, maybe close enough to be a distant cousin, but not quite Jack.

Katie whispered again: "He's even wearing the uniform."

Ahh. The uniform.

As my father got older, he wore virtually the same thing every day. Now, I don't mean he wore literally the same clothes, because he was something of a hygiene freak, but like Monk, if you opened his closet, you would see multiple copies of the same thing hanging there. He wore black pants. He wore white button-down shirts, short-sleeved. (Unless it was a holiday or he was going out somewhere, in which case he wore a blue shirt, like in the picture above, or for extremely dressy occasions, a blue collared golf-type shirt, which looked like a tent.) I'm guessing he wore the uniform because he found clothes to wear that he was comfortable in, so he acquired multiples so he could wear it every day. The grandchildren, apparently, thought this was part of his quirky charm. Except ... uh ...

I do that too, as I've mentioned before, but I never thought of it this way until K said that the man in the restaurant was wearing Grandpa's uniform. K did mention earlier in the summer that perhaps I might want to ... vary my wardrobe a bit. The truth is, I don't. Maybe I will some day, but for now, I'm very happy. I wear jeans every day. I wear a t-shirt, preferably v-necked, or in the summer, a Land's End cotton tank top. Over that I wear a long-sleeved button down shirt, sleeves rolled up. In the summer, I wear a denim shirt, of which I have several. During the school year I dress up a bit and wear a plaid shirt, or stripes, or a nice solid, maybe even in pink. When I dress up, I wear a Chico's micro-suede shirt, and I don't roll up the sleeves. And furthermore ...

My sister does it, too, wears a uniform, although hers is different. She wears cotton-knit shorts, year round, often with a print cotton top and a denim shirt over that. She wears Birkenstocks. She carries a huge purse. I prefer to carry no purse, and put everything I need in my jeans pockets.

So I ask you, is there anything wrong with picking a uniform and sticking to it? I have my reasons, most of which involve my weight and various other body issues; my father probably wore what he wore because of his weight, too, I'd guess. I could pass on worse traits to my children, no? At least I don't have that giant jaw thing to hand over to them.


WATCHING FAMILY GUY :: ENTRY #1812
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Monday, July 21, 2008

So Here We Are

Just rolling along. I'm getting my couple of tasks done in the morning, taking a nap in the afternoon, and that's about it. It's not like I don't have any deep thoughts; I'm doing all that, and writing diary entries in my head all day, as per usual, they're just gone by the time I sit down to type. Ought to work on that; I'm awfully boring here.

I just wrote a long email to the Chum, in Maine for the summer, detailing my recent ups and downs, medical and mental, since the summer began. I hadn't really gone into it with her before. She's kind of the ultimate "up" person, or at least she likes to come across that way. It's not that she has no medical issues of her own, she does, but they never seem to interfere in any aspect of her life. So on the one hand, I sure would like some of that for my life, but on the other, I always wonder if she's thinking that if I just toughen up, I can stay on top of this stuff, too. So it took me a couple of weeks to tell her that I'm on the anti-depressants because it makes me feel like I'm admitting a huge weakness to her, even though I don't feel that way about it in general. (I think.)

Ooh, I just remembered what I wanted to write about today, but I need to gather some pictures first, so I'll put it on a post-it so I remember to do it tomorrow.

And now, I think, I will try to get some more of that book read.


WATCHING TWO AND A HALF MEN :: ENTRY #1811
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Saturday, July 19, 2008

For Real

So, I can post an entry from the iPhone, but it's hardly worth giving up using the regular computer for. Even so, next time I'm not home (i.e., in DisneyWorld), I can do it if I want. I've got the little thing pretty well set up to do whatever I need it to do. I can't open and work on Word documents (although I can open them), but I can use Google documents if I need to do anything like that. So I'm okay with it. And it's cute and it's fun.

Again, nothing much happening here. R was here for the day and the four of us went out to dinner for this week's anniversary. Tomorrow looks to be a rainy day, so if we're up to it, a Target run, since we didn't go last week, but that's more to occupy some time than anything else; there's nothing we actually need to get. I have a Costco trip planned for Tuesday with my sister.

And that's it. I watched Persepolis last night, which was very good. I got nothing in particular for tonight, so I'll see what's on. I may have a couple of Quantum Leaps recorded, though, so if I do, I'll watch that for awhile.

WATCHING TWO AND A HALF MEN :: ENTRY #1810
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Just Checking

Trying to see if I can post from the iPhone. More later.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Same Old

It's hot outside, it's quiet inside. Not much going on At. All. Eye doctor today and all is moving along well in that area.

I can't say I'm getting much of anything done this summer, and I can't say that I care. I'm not unhappy, and if I'm bored, I'll do something. The only thing bothering me at the moment is my hair, which is driving me crazy, but I'm getting a cut next Thursday, so I'm hoping for something different.

And this is the excitement that is my life. My big project, if you could call it that, is to copy some files into Google Documents so I can open them on the iPhone, which doesn't otherwise open Office files, its one big drawback so far. But I suppose someone will come up with an application for that before too long.

Still low on the crazy scale, always a good thing for me.

WATCHING FAMILY GUY :: ENTRY #1808
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Thursday, July 17, 2008

And What's More ...

Ooh, I got lots of comments on the marriage/name change thing. I don't think it's generational at all, btw, not based on the comments, anyway, and my friend the Chum, about my age, also kept her original name for many, many years, until all three of her stepsons were married and she was the only one left in the family with a different name. She also went from an easy name to an easy name, for whatever that's worth.

We have a family story that goes with this; forgive me if I've told it before. We were sitting at the dinner table when the girls were very little. K was still in a highchair, so R was maybe, maybe four. And she asked out of nowhere, as kids do, how people got their last names. We explained that children generally got their father's last names, and as for women taking their husband's names, it was only a custom, and that it was completely up to the individual's choice whether or not to do it, and so on.

She thought about it for all of maybe 30 seconds and said in a huff: "My husband is not my father! I will never change my name!" and she pointed at the baby and said "And neither will she!" Well. Okay then. (It hasn't come up yet for either of them, but I would guess that R will keep what she's got. K, I don't know.)

I found that being a teacher actually made it very easy to get used to having a different name because from the get-go, people are calling you Mrs. Newname all day long. Anyway, for me, it worked out this way. For others, it works out a different way. What I really can't stand is when people give their kids hyphenated names that turn out to be, you know, Mary Elizabeth Rosenberg-Wallerstein. Give me a break. No computers can handle it, and by the time they're in high school, the kids are saying "Just call me Mary Rosenberg" or whatever; they're cutting it short to be able to manage their daily lives. If you're having kids, I believe in picking a name and sticking with it. Again, that's just me.

So I got my toy today, and I've been playing with it all afternoon since I got back from physical therapy, which I am totally done with because now, let me tell you, my arm hurts like hell and has for two weeks (since I started p.t.) Going to the doctor next week, I'll probably need a CAT scan. Once again, more doctor stuff.

And that's that.


WATCHING GILMORE GIRLS :: ENTRY #1807
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Marriage, Continued

Thank you for the well wishes. We did indeed go out for dinner, and after a false start at the wrong restaurant, had a very nice time. The Hubs gave me two, count'em, two pairs of earrings which are both very, very nice. I'll try to get a picture tomorrow.

We also made tentative plans to go away for a long weekend, not during the summer, but in November, when I get a couple of days off for teachers' convention. (Thursday and Friday of the week with Election Day in it.) We're thinking of going to Virginia to see Monticello (Thomas Jefferson's home) and drive along Skyline Drive (I think it's called), one of the most beautiful drives in America, I hear. And possibly go to Harper's Ferry in West Virginia, which is a Civil War thing. (Where John Brown staged his abolitionist raid which helped spark the war.) And maybe a day in DC on the way back; we'll see.

Anyway, the Empress commented about being married for more than half of one's life and yes, certainly, we are that. I was 24 and the Hubs just shy of 23 when we got married 31 years ago. We got married about a week after his parents' 25th anniversary, so we're past that, too.

The funny thing, and perhaps many of you will identify with this, is the idea that women generally change their names when they marry; I have been a Chai for 31 years, but I was only a Pre-Chai for 24. Who does that make me? Do I still retain my identity as a Pre-Chai?

I absolutely do. It is part of the bond with my parents and my sister. To a lesser degree, even my children share that bond because we identify the five of us women (me and my two, my sister and her one) as Pre-Chai Women. Hey, depending on the circumstance and the character trait being displayed, we will even identify as Pre-Pre-Chai Women, which is to say that we are acting like my mother's side of the family, and identify as her maiden name.

What's in a name? When I got married, the Hubs said it was fine with him if I kept my maiden name, but really, I love my father, but it was a terrible name. Even he said he should have changed it when he got out of the Army. His father wouldn't have minded, but that ship -- all of those ships -- have long ago sailed. As far as I'm concerned, although I will be a Pre-Chai till I die, I'm perfectly content with my simple Italian Chai name.

My Wonderful Nice has made an interesting choice to keep her maiden name. Interesting for several reasons. Hers is a generic German Jewish name, not hard to spell or pronounce, but her husband's is a lovely, simple English/Scandinavian type name, aka, the kind of name I have always longed for. Another part of the mystery is that she cannot be keeping this name to honor her father, because he is and always has been a shit, especially to her. It isn't her mother's last name anymore, because my sister has really traded up in terms of names with each marriage and now has one of the simplest generic names there is (which I love.) So we can only speculate that Niece has kept this name because a) it's part of her identity, and b) it's the same name that her brothers have, one of whom is her twin.

Because I think she doesn't get it, as I do, that she will always be who she is, and even keep that name as part of her identity when it isn't hers anymore, and that it's not the name that bonds her to her brothers, although they will always collectively be Them, just as they are all still Pre-Chais (etc.)

Am I making any sense?

I really do think that everyone should keep, change, or for that matter, make up any name they want to have. Just something to think about.


WATCHING GEORGE LOPEZ :: ENTRY #1806
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

1 Down, 1 To Go

It's been a very Mac day.

Things have just been very quiet and relaxed around here. Around noon today, I called the Apple Store we had waited at on Friday and the guy told me they had "limited stock" and we should come right away. We didn't even get potty stops in before we left, we just took off. It's about a 20 minute ride. When we got there, they had ONE left, which went to K, because she's the one who's really been wanting it and waited on two lines on Friday. Anyway, my eye doctor's office is maybe a half mile from the store, so I'll stop in on after my appointment on Friday.

In the meantime, GO ME, because I added RAM to my laptop before, and I have never ever messed with the innards of a Mac til now. Years back, I thought nothing of tinkering with PC guts, setting jumper switches and upgrading CPU's, but my eyes aren't what they used to be, and I really really really didn't want to mess this up. But I forgot: it's a Mac. The directions are clear and the process was stupid easy, virtually impossible to get wrong. I was worried that I had possibly not gotten the right RAM, but I did. Now I can install that USB turntable thing, which I didn't want to do until I had the more memory.

Weird mail of the day: three letters from lawyers who found out about my ticket in the public record and are offering me free consultations and possible representation. Do I really need a lawyer for this? Well, the Hubs -- a lawyer -- will know, and if he says yes, it's probably a perfect job for Wonderful Niece. Especially since I can pay her with a Bare Escentuals gift certificate.

Oh, today is the anniversary of us, 31 years. I cannot believe that, but I know it's true. We're going out for dinner, but I can't think of where, and probably with the girls over the weekend.

In the meantime, I'm just being lazy. Otherwise feeling fine, for me.

WATCHING PROJECT RUNWAY MARATHON :: ENTRY #1805
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Monday, July 14, 2008

Back In Touch

I've really done nothing all weekend, but I feel out of touch. I'm here, I'm fine. I think I'm adjusting to the new medication. I feel very tired, as if I could just lie down all the time, but once I'm up and doing things, I feel fine. The absence of a sinus infection is wonderful.

I didn't even get to Target this weekend (!), but I did have to do a little driving around of R, because she had car trouble Friday night when she was bringing K home after a party they'd been to, so she left the car with our mechanic and borrowed K's car to get home and brought it back yesterday, after which I took her home. She's really only 20 minutes away with no traffic, so that was fine. If her car's ready tomorrow, which it should be, she'll take the train here after work, and I'll only have to pick her up in downtown B-Town and bring her to pick up her car.

Okay, here's the iPhone thing. As for K, her contract is up and she's ready for a newe phone, so if this is what she wants, whatever. I, of course, am a different story, because I have a phone that works fine and that I have no plans to give up.

I am already a PDA user, which I make good use of in terms of my calendar, contacts, etc. I play certain games on it and use it to read books. The one thing my PDA does not do well is the Internet. I can connect if I can get onto a WiFi spot, although it won't connect to some secure networks even when I have the password. There are plenty of places -- DisneyWorld comes to mind -- that don't have Wi-Fi everywhere. And the web browser on the PDA is truly terrible.

That said, I am a lover of gadgets, as some people just are. I don't travel much, I don't wear expensive clothes, I don't even go to the movies more than once or twice a year. Gadgets are my thing, I guess. They are not my husband's thing, but let me tell you, if this was 20 years ago, his father would have been on line with me and K on Friday, because I share my love of gadgets with him. (Not to mention that if it was 20 years ago and my mother was on a manic swing, she would have been there with us, too, because she was very good at all things technology. She wouldn't have bought one, because she wasn't a manic spender, but she would have gotten a huge kick out of being part of the party.)

So for me, the iPhone replaces my Palm and adds in the Internet access. Why wait on line on opening day? Ah. That's another whole question. We weren't doing anything else so we figured what the hell, maybe we'll get them. If not, as it turned out, not. We'll find them later in the week, or next week. The whole waiting on line thing was kind of like the Harry Potter midnight release. Seemed like something to do at the time.


WATCHING FAMILY GUY :: ENTRY #1804
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Friday, July 11, 2008

iPhone? Anybody Got an iPhone?

What a long, strange day it's been, but still, on the crazy scale: 2 out of 10, so not bad. Even though weird shit happened today.

K was determined to get an iPhone today. Got on line at the AT&T store at 6:30 in the A.M., and yet did not score one. She got home around 11:00, disappointed, but not discouraged. I had been to physical therapy in the meantime, that went well, and I had no other plans for the day.

We took a ride to see if we could find the school she's been assigned to for student teaching, which was a piece of cake. Got some lunch, came home, both took naps, and she asked if I had any interest in going to an Apple Store, not the one close to home but not that far, one that she doesn't know how to get to.

Got there at 3:00, our part of the line moved into the store at 5:15. Let me tell you, they were mighty nice there, distributing cold water bottles and donuts to the people waiting on line, and giving updates about what was available. By this point, I was gonna get me one; I earned it by putting in my line time! Anyway, by 5:45, we could see that we were not getting out of there before 7:30 or 8:00, and R is picking K up to go to a party at 8:15, which first requires showering, hair drying, etc. So we left. And I have since read that the best we could have done tonight was get the phones but not get them activated, because that whole system is down.

Oh, come on. You knew I'd cave on the iPhone. It was only a matter of time. And still, I'm not in a hurry. K wants hers tomorrow, but I can wait a week if I have to.

My biggie of the day was a nasty speeding ticket I got this morning. You know, I was driving along, thinking "Wow, it's really great to feel good for two days in a row" and then I heard the sirens. Ah well. An extremely polite an professional young police officer, who made it clear that the state was making them crack down -- which I knew -- and that even though he has the radar proof, I should really really go to traffic court and plead not guilty. I'm guessing that will reduce the fine ($200!!!) and the points on my license (5!!!!!) So I have to call on Monday and work that out. Five points is a lot, and will not affect my insurance in any pleasant way, which just went up anyway, a little, because of K's accident, not to mention her new car. And we have the highest insurance rates in the country, you know.

Ah well.


WATCHING TWO AND A HALF MEN :: ENTRY #1803
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Thursday, July 10, 2008

On the Crazy Scale: 2 Out of 10

All in all, a pretty good day. In fact, on the way home from the eye doctor, I cranked up the radio so loud that I could feel the car vibrating through my feet on the floor, and sang along loud, first to "Woodstock", and then to "I Love the Nightlife". I know it's a coincidence because no anti-depressant works that fast, but it was very nice. Although now I have to do some eyelid-washing routine every day because my eyelashes will otherwise fall out. Or something. Whatever.

K, who is getting up at the crack of very early tomorrow to go get on line for an iPhone, finally got her student teaching assignment today, this afternoon in fact, while I was at the eye doctor. Without going into a lot of detail, which we don't have completely confirmed yet anyway, it appears that she is going to one of the county magnet schools, essentially, a county gifted-and-talented program. Oh ho. I didn't even know that these schools took student teachers, but if it turns out to be what it appears to be, this is an exceptionally plum assignment. I must call The Other Chai tomorrow, who knows a lot of county people and also teaches in K's field -- social studies -- because she may know the two teachers K will be working with.

So we got R at the airport last night, the Hubs and I, which was not the scene of devastation I feared but actually quite pleasant. The airlines are all insane, as we know, but fortunately, Newark Airport's three terminals are arranged around a loop of road, so if you get to Terminal A and there is no R yet, you can just keep on driving, pass Terminals B and C, and come right back to A, and if you do this three or four or nine times, sooner or later, the kid will be waiting for you at the curb. Didn't get home until 11:30, and not to sleep for at least another hour, but I sure slept well.

Okay, gonna see if I can reach the Sibs on her Colorado adventure.


WATCHING TWO AND A HALF MEN :: ENTRY #1802
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

The News in Brief

Do I ever not have medical news?

My blood pressure is fine, my heart rate is higher than it was before but still pretty good, I do have a sinus infection, I am depressed. The doctor said that she and Resnick had discussed months ago that depression was likely to follow my Crohn's diagnosis -- and they didn't even know me that well then -- and so she was ready to prescribe happy pills whenever I asked. She gave me Lexapro, a low dose, which she says is the anti-depressant least likely to interact with all the other crap I'm taking. So that's good. And I got antibiotics, too.

And went to physical therapy this afternoon for my arm/shoulder, which hurt a lot, but I think was okay. I'm going back Friday morning for more torture.

As we speak -- so to speak -- R is in the dreaded Atlanta Airport yet again, but the news is so far so good this time. AirTran actually booked her on a flight that got into Atlanta at 4:06 and a connecting flight to Newark that was supposed to leave at 4:36, and from a different terminal. Clearly, that was never going to happen, but the second flight was delayed, so she's getting in around 9:00, according to the current plan. Right now it's thundering and raining out there, so I'd be unhappier if I knew she was in the air and getting close. The storms should be over by 9:00, at which time someone from this house will be meeting her at the airport. This time looks like maybe the Hubs and I, which doesn't thrill me because the last time we had to pick up a kid at the airport he threw one of his hissy fits in the car, driving down the Turnpike, and I sat frozen in terror the rest of the way. Like a thunderstorm, these things pass over him quickly, but the effects last longer with me. My preference is that no one else should fly anywhere for a really long time. (Unless I'm going to see the mouse; that's always exempt.)

My hearing aids went into the shop this afternoon, too, so I have a certain measure of peace and quiet, but, you know, I can't hear stuff. An interesting trade-off.

WATCHING FRIENDS :: ENTRY #1801
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

*sigh*

So I went to therapy, yada yada, and here's my big revelation of the day. Why is it that when I'm sick I'd rather keep it to myself instead of "being a burden" on everyone else? I've been trying to work this out for months, and I figured it had something to do with my mother, who coped much better with real illness than she did with hypochondria, which I supposed I had felt was a burden to me. Wrong! The therapist -- Ginny -- said something very simple that made perfect sense. Nothing to do with my mother. My illnesses are a burden to me. Duh. Well, they are. No wonder I'm afraid they will be to other people, too. Very simple, but I guess I never that of it that way before.

Yes, they are a burden, all this nickel and dime crap. None of it is life-threatening, but all of it is life-annoying, and I can't get a handle on it because it can literally take a different form every day. Last week an eye infection; I had no idea that was part of the mix, too. I read today that although weight loss is common with Crohn's, some people have weight gain instead. Well, I've been saying for years that I was gaining weight for no reason. There ya go.

I did get to mention y'all, though, because I told Ginny that it was the diary world people who convinced me that I'm not actually a hypochondriac (since my ailments are all real), as I always felt I was. One problem she didn't have to solve for me, so, thanks.

So, I am relatively bummed, but hey, that's why I'm going to therapy. I'm also considering talking to the doctor about a mild anti-depressant. I've never really been ready to take that kind of med before, but now, I just feel tired of struggling every damn day to feel good when my body is fighting me back. The struggle wears me out (oh hey, fatigue is another Crohn's thing, I found out today) and makes me much more susceptible to idiot interference, like anyone I feel is standing in my way or making me feel worse (aka, The Martian.)

I was good today, though; I called the hospital and got the name of the Crohn's support group and even called. The woman I spoke to was very, very nice and helpful, but unfortunately the group is not meeting during the summer. But I'll go in September, I already have it on my calendar.

I also got in nine holes of golf after a three-hole warmup game, and two games of bowling (on the Wii. You knew I didn't go outside or anything.) I'm getting much better at both of the those, but I can't play the tennis at all. I'm not only bad at it, it really hurts my arm. Oh, I even finally made another appointment for physical therapy, going tomorrow.

I think I'm going to try to get back to some reading tonight. I have to see if the eyedrops I'm using have worked well enough to clear up my vision for reading. The computer seems to be much better, so maybe the book will be, too.

Oh, I did actually take some garbage out of the basement this morning, and I bagged up a bunch of old (unmarked) videotapes. I did this to get to our old stash of vinyl record albums, so I could start getting the USB turntable I got for Christmas connected and get that project going. What I found was that almost all the record sleeves are mildewed -- ew -- although the actual vinyl records seem okay, but every album of mine that I found, I have on CD, or I've downloaded the mp3s in the last few years. Hmmm. Seemed like such a cool gift, but in reality, not all that useful to me. I only brought two of my albums upstairs: the original Broadway cast recording of Peter Pan, with Mary Martin, an album I've owned for at least 50 years, and the Temptations' Greatest Hits. I'll have to go through my John Denver more closely, but if I'm only missing a song or two from an album here and there, is it really worth the whole process? Looks like I may be working on a lot of the Hubs' albums, which he probably won't even want. (He is definitely not someone who gives a gift so you can use it to make something for him. And he doesn't listen to mp3s, so I'd have to burn each one as a CD for him, which he would then listen to and give back to me. Not the general idea.)

I am so rambling. Tomorrow, doctor, nails, physical therapy, and a trip to DSW (shoe store) if I can squeeze it in.

WATCHING FRIENDS :: ENTRY #1800
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Monday, July 7, 2008

So Here's How It's Going

So far, I am not achieving my main goal for this summer, which is not to be sick like I was last summer.

Hmm.

I have the eye infection, which is improving, but I'm pretty sure I have a sinus infection, too. I won't go into the details, but I'll tell you, I wake up every morning and the first thing I think is that I wish I was in someone else's body. Okay, I'll go into the details, some; I'm not stuffy and the pain is manageable, but my teeth hurt and there is a characteristic unpleasant taste in my mouth/smell in my nose at all times. So, ick. I'm going to the doctor Wednesday for a blood pressure check -- that's been good, at least -- so I'll ask her about this, too, although I think a visit to Harry Katz The Sinus Man is in my near future.

I watched the movie Waitress over the weekend, which I like very, very much. I highly recommend it.

I went on a fruitless search this morning to the Japanese stores in Edgewater for some bento supplies; on the way back I tried to find a store I had seen listed online which was in a completely different part of the county, a part I'd never actually been in before. Also fruitless. A huge waste of time. The only good thing about it was getting to listen to more of the song countdown on the radio.

My fun for the day was going out to buy a new baby gift. Someone the Hubs works with (whose Polish wedding we went to last year) has just become a new daddy, which is exciting, and my standard new baby gift is books, so I had a fun visit to Barnes and Noble this afternoon. It was even more fun because these are books for the mommy, too, who is educated in Polish but has only been learning English since she arrived last year, so I think she'll enjoy them, too. Here's what I got:

Goodnight, Moon
Where the Wild Things Are
Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day
Harold and the Purple Crayon
Green Eggs and Ham

The four books in the Nutshell Library, which are
Alligators All Around
Chicken Soup With Rice
Pierre
One Was Johnny


It's very Sendak heavy, but hey, I love Sendak above all children's author/illustrators, so there you are. I wasn't going to get Harold, but I saw a nice paperback edition of it on the counter where I was sorting all the other books, so I had to get it. Goodnight, Moon is a board book; I also saw a board book edition of The Snowy Day, so I got that for myself because I love it and don't have it on my special children's book shelf. (Although I'm thinking now that the edition my kids had when they were little is on the other bookshelf, behind the little couch. Ah well. You can never have too many fine books.) The whole trip made me think again that it would be nice to work in the B & N children's department when I retire, but clear thinking reminds me that it would not. I'm not up on contemporary children's books, and I wouldn't want to work Saturdays, which they want you to do. (And Sundays, I would think, if we ever give up the Blue Laws here that keep the stores closed on Sundays.)

So I did knock off two things on my actual list of summer projects, which were to buy the books, and to file the last few months worth of house papers. I haven't started the basement yet, which I'm not bothered about. I have the turntable to hook up to the computer, but then I'm thinking that I can't even get to the record albums until I do a little basement work. Maybe next week.

Therapy tomorrow morning. All ready.

WATCHING FRIENDS :: ENTRY #1799
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Friday, July 4, 2008

And Then It Got Exciting

Last night, I wrote:

R is currently waiting at the airport for a flight to visit friends over the holiday, a flight which I checked online so I know it's delayed. Sucks to be her.

Well. Ahem.

So, shortly after that, she learned that her flight to Atlanta was going to be so delayed that she would never catch the connecting flight from Atlanta to Charleston. The helpful ticket agent said she should fly to Atlanta (whenever the delayed flight finally tookk off), sleep in the Atlanta airport all night, and get the next flight to Charleston in the morning. She told him no, she wanted to rebook the whole thing to go today (which is what I had suggested to her.) He said, But then you'd have to spend the night in the airport here! (Newark.) Uh ... no, she lives here. So the arrangements were made, at which point she discovered that the trains were already on a holiday schedule (i.e., not running to her town), so K and went to the airport and got her, and took her home. And brought her back to the airport this morning. As of this moment, the first flight went well, and she's on her way to Charleston.

The annoying thing about all this is that the friend she's going to visit is a very peculiar friend, and she was also going there to see a guy, but they've since broken it off, so she's basically going because she didn't want to lose the money for the plane ticket. When she called the friend and explained the situation with the flight delays, she was annoyed, because she and her husband are working today, and they were counting on R to babysit, and to wait for the cable guy.

See?

Anyway, we were treated to fireworks in various towns as we made our way back from the airport last night, and R, who flew down to visit the same people last July 3, says it's very cool to fly over this country on the evening of July 3, because as you look out the plane window, you keep seeing fireworks below you. Neat.

In the meantime, I have the Twilight Zone marathon on -- wouldn't be July 4 weekend without it -- but I had to change the channel when "The Hitchhiker" episode came on, because it still scares me. My big sister told me -- as big sisters will do -- that the hitchhiker lived under my bed, or, if he got tired of that, in my closet. For years after that, I slept in the very center of my bed, still as a soldier all night, with a series of dolls on either side of me. I dearly loved my dolls, but I kind of hoped that when the hitchhiker reached up to grab me, he would get one of them first by mistake, thus providing me with valuable escape time. I also slept every night for years with my closet and room doors wide open, and the blinds up and curtains open, so that light from the street would illuminate all corners. *sigh* She also didn't take me to see the Beatles at Shea Stadium, but that's a story for another day. But she does go to doctors with me and otherwise is the best sister in the world, so I'm not complaining. I'm just saying.

The New York City oldies station (WCBS-FM) is playing its entire playlist in alphabetical order this week. Unusual, and interesting, and sometimes surprising. Sadly, they are now a 60s-70s-80s station as opposed to their previous 50s-60s-70s, but okay. This afternoon I went through my iTunes and put together a similar huge list, although not as huge as theirs, I suppose, and if you take away Bon Jovi, there's not a whole lot of 80s. (And mine has Buddy Holly.) Anyway, it's a big list; it's amusing to see the songs arranged that way, and to see which songs I have more than one version of and I'm keeping there. Sometimes, more than one artist had a hit with the same song. So there's a bunch of those. I think I can listen to this mix for weeks before I get to the end of it.

I too love July 4, as many of you have said. We used to have a barbecue here at my house, but since my parents are gone and my sister's kids are dispersed and/or at their in-laws' beck and call, it's faded away. We loved it, though; I may have posted some pictures in the past. Anyway, I'll close out today with one of my favorites, circa 1991:


(My kids are the two smallest, nephew JJ is the biggest, and the other two are the twins, Wonderful Niece and Good Guy. And in the middle, pre-cancer Shirl, and Jack, who hated to have his picture taken, but loved his grandchildren above all.)


WATCHING THE TWILIGHT ZONE :: ENTRY #1798
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Catching Up

Okay, let's see.

One of the interesting revelations that yesterday brought me was that hey, not only do I find sharing my vacation with K to be somewhat lacking in alone time, so does she! Well, whaddaya know. Really, I should have figured that one out. So this morning, after I got up slowly and attempted breakfast -- not working out for me lately -- I went out and did some errands and things so that she could have the house to herself for a while when she got up. And she wasn't going to want to go to K-Mart with me (where I got those sports tools for the Wii, more on that to follow), or to get my car washed, and so on. We were actually home together for a brief time today, since she went out while I was home, and then I had the other doctor to go to, and then a pedicure, and then she was gone to class.

It also turns out that the edge I was teetering on a few weeks ago is still just under the surface. I let a few things get to me yesterday, although I didn't blow my top and got myself back under control, and I came close to letting someone have it at K-Mart this morning. But that's what made me realize where I am, so I'm working on it. I don't like feeling this way. The near-constant sinus headache is also not helping.

There is a very grungy K-Mart in the town next to B-Town, so I thought I'd make a quick check for the sports pack there, since it's convenient. I made my way into the empty electronics department and started looking around, at which point a male employee, maybe in his thirties or forties, started following me around, saying, rudely, "Hello? Hello? Are you looking for something?" I said I was looking for Wii games and accessories. He pointed me to a wall of games, and then said, again rudely, "The accessories are here" and pointed to another aisle. I found exactly what I was looking for, and asked him -- because he was still following me around -- if I could return it if it didn't work. "No," he said, quite firmly, so I put it back, and said "Why would I buy it, then?" He said that of course it would work, and I pointed to another set and said I had bought that but had to return it because it didn't work. And he said "Impossible."

So I said "Then I guess I'm lying to you. Bye." when what I really wanted to do was rip his smug head off and call a manager over. Fucking asshole. So then I went to another K-Mart in another town, picked up the same item and took it to the cashier, who said that of course I could return it if I wanted to, and that was that. I got it, it works, I was unnecessarily aggravated by an idiot. What was his point, anyway?

I liked the new eye doctor very much. She confirmed the other guy's diagnosis, but gave me stronger eye drops for it. She also explained his whole diagnosis; get this. The doctor had said something I didn't quite get for what I had, so I asked him to write it down. He said his assistant would write it down, and when I reminded her, this is what she wrote on the back of a business card:

Episcleritis
Blepheritis
Trichiasis

I said "I have all three of those?" and she said "Well, in that order."

Excuse me?

The doctor had said one thing -- episcleritis -- and hadn't mentioned anything else, and what was that supposed to mean: "Well, in that order"? Today's doctor explained. Episcleritis is the infection I have, a side effect of which is irritation of the inside of the eyelid, which is blepheritis. The last one, I'm not even typing it again, means I have an eyelash that is growing in towards my eyeball. Which I know; I've had this ever since the brain surgery and subsequent eye surgery (which was done by an idiot and has since been repaired.) Once a year or so, my optometrist removes the bad eyelash. Today's doctor told me what it meant and asked if I wanted her to remove it for me, which of course, I did. Yesterday's guy noted it on my chart but didn't think to do anything about it. (Takes two seconds to deal with.) So yeah, very glad I went to a better doctor. I liked her, and need to follow up with her next week.

R is currently waiting at the airport for a flight to visit friends over the holiday, a flight which I checked online so I know it's delayed. Sucks to be her.

So I had nothing in the house for dinner, and I stopped and picked up a box of frozen White Castle cheeseburgers. There are six in the box, which would probably be piggy of me -- although I've eaten six in one sitting fresh off the steamer; they're very small -- but I'm contemplating four. What's a little heartburn among friends?


WATCHING THE TWILIGHT ZONE :: ENTRY #1797
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Not a Great Day

*sigh*

It's like it never ends. It turns out I have an eye infection, courtesy of the Crohn's. I'm not all that clear what it is from the diagnosis I got from the opthamalogist, but I'm going to make an appointment tomorrow with my sister's eye doctor, someone she raves about, and she's had some serious eye issues for a long time. I just went today to the name my internist gave me. Anyway, it turns out that there can be all kinds of eye complications with Crohn's. It's like the gift that keeps on giving.

And then there was a woman in the elevator with me, and then in the waiting room, and then in the examining room before me, who had on some kind of perfume that went right to my sinuses, so I've been in headache hell since about 2:30 this afternoon. So, other than getting K's car back all nice and shiny and fixed, it hasn't been much of a day.

I could write more, but I don't want my eyes to bulge out of my head and roll around on the keyboard.


WATCHING FAMILY GUY :: ENTRY #1796
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Easy Going Day

Today was a real vacation kind of day. I didn't get up until after eight, and then I did a totally goofy thing, which was that I wanted to take a leisurely shower but I wanted coffee first, so I dashed out to the drive-through before I was really dressed, just a shirt thrown over what I had on and quick Crocs on my feet. I am such a rebel! I don't even leave the house without a bra on when I'm going to the emergency room but I guess needing an emergency iced latte, decaf skim, takes precedence.

The highlight of my day probably was the shower; I didn't even blow my hair dry afterwards because this haircut lends itself to curly, so I let it go. K was not impressed. I am not so much caring about it.

I am remembering that if she's not working, then I'm sharing my vacation with her. This has its good and bad points, but I suppose some of the bad will go away tomorrow when we get her car back. We do have a rental for her, but she's not comfortable driving it, and there's really no need for her to. Insurance is paying for it, so it makes sense to have it if we need it, though. But what errands we need to do we're doing together, at least we have been for the last week, and she's been taking my car to class at night. It's not as if I go anywhere at night anyway. But if she could get a job for the summer, not that I think she can at this point, that would be nice. It's the night class that messes things up; if she didn't have to take that, she wouldn't have gotten a job at a summer camp, but the timing doesn't work out. She is sick to death of going to school, and who can blame her? Especially since she might be done by now if she'd gotten the proper advice.

One of my eyes is all read and feels like I've been punched -- I haven't been -- so it's making reading a little uncomfortable. What I did, though, was actually watch a Netflix on the day it arrived; I don't think I've ever done that before. I wanted to see About a Boy, since I'd just read the book. Not a fabulous movie, but a decent adaptation.

And that's the extent of me for the day. And I have no plans for tomorrow either. So there.



WATCHING FRIENDS :: ENTRY #1795
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon