Recuperation: Complete
I'm declaring te recuperation period after my surgery officially over. In other words, it's time to get off my butt and start getting things done. I have stacks of papers on my desk that need tending to, I have food to freeze and food in the freezer to cook, I have an attic and a basement to tend to.
Since my surgery, I've been doing things that don't require a whole lot of physical activity, or, let's face it, mental acuity. Yesterday, I had lunch with my kids and mentioned something about needing to clean out the attic (which is small, but also sloped, so hard to get in and out of) before I can do the basement, since I need the attic to store certain things in, and Robin said it sounded like a procrastinating tactic to her. Hmmm. Too true. So tomorrow morning I take a look at the attic and see what I can do. Step one.
As for the mental acuity, it's mostly that I don't remember everything I should remember because if I haven't accessed the file, so to speak, in a long time, it's just hard to get back. For example, who were my next-door neighbors growing up? Margie was my friend, and her brother and sister were David and ... damn, I had that one before. Elaine. Okay, and their parents were .... it took me about six hours to remember Yetta, but I still have no idea what the dad's name was. I want to say Steve, but then I remember that Steve was the dad next-door neighbor when we lived in the apartment, when I was about seven. Okay, so Steve, wife Ruth, son Stanley -- hated him -- and their daughter, my adorable sweet little blonde playmate was ... damn.
Most of our snow is finally gone, but there's another storm coming tomorrow, although not a big one. So they say.
I was aware all day yesterday that it was the anniversary of my father's death, eight years. But when I talked to Katie this morning, she put it in different terms. She said that at one point in the day yesterday, she happened to glance at a calendar and see the date, and she suddenly thought "Oh! I haven't seen Grandpa in eight years!" Even now, I'm choking up; I certainly did when she told me about it. I've been dreaming about him a lot lately, just ordinary dreams. Sometimes he tells me, okay, I can take his car out, or no, I still can't get a dog. I guess I'm dreaming of him when I was teenager. Sometimes I dream about my mother too, but not always the n the same dream.
Speaking of which, I think I'm still dreaming about the high school and/or library every night. (Sometimes my parents are there.) I definitely could use some kind of dream analysis. Anyway, at dinner tonight, the thought hit me for the very first time that maybe I'm ready to go back. For a visit, I mean. Maybe that's what I need to exorcise the whole thing, eh? No idea what I would claim for the excuse for the visit, although my library aide's birthday is next Saturday, so I guess I could drop in Friday morning for a birthday surprise. This whole thing will require some serious thought, or perhaps, some focused dreaming.