Not Much

Not much is going on, but I feel like I may have turned a corner on this summer, not in a bad way. I went into school today and had a very pleasant and productive meeting with the principal. I also spoke with the Martian and cleared the air on that whole issue.

What was interesting about my talk with the Martian is that I felt completely like my real self. I had no anger towards her whatsoever, nor defensiveness. She appeared a little fragile and even frail. As I result, I went totally into protective mode, which is more like the real me. I would never come on strong with someone I perceive as weak or needy. Anyway, I apologized again, she thanked me and said continued apologies are unnecessary, we agreed to start fresh from here. Which is all I need.

Again, I think I'm feeling emotionally better today because I'm feeling physically not too bad. My shoulder isn't bothering me, my tummy has been quiet today, and what I thought was a cold seems more like allergies today (which is to say, it's not getting worse, like a cold does.) I took a reasonably pleasant two hour nap today.

The unfortunate moment of the day was when I put on a shirt to go out in and it was tight in the shoulders and didn't close over my massive bosom. I'm wearing one of those bras that has its own shape, so to speak; it could stand up on its own, so I'm hoping its that and not, heaven help me, more weight. I'm afraid to get on the scale as it is.

I am making more of an effort to finish the book I've been reading forever, and I got As I Lay Dying out of the library today while I was in school. I read The Sound and Fury when I was in college, which left me feeling no need whatsoever to read more Faulkner, but R thinks I should try this one. We'll see how it goes.

And that's it. I have a facial on tap for tomorrow morning. This is certainly The Summer of Me.

WATCHING TWO AND A HALF MEN :: ENTRY #1817
SUMMER BOOK #3: The Yiddish Policemen's Union by Michael Chabon