How Tired Am I?

I am so tired that I can't even think of a clever answer to the question.

I had one of those night-sweaty/bad dream kind of nights. I've been having bad dreams a lot lately; not nightmares, but unpleasant and almost-scary dreams. The good news is that I rarely remember them after I've been awake for a few minutes, but the bad feeling stays with me.

I do remember the very weird one I had just before waking up Saturday morning. It was in real time, sort of, in that I dreamed that I was in bed Saturday morning at it was 7.00, which it was when I was having the dream. I dreamed that the Hubs came into the room and woke me up and said "My father's dead; I have to go," and then he started bustling around the room, very business-like, gathering what he would need to spend a couple of days at his mother's. I sat up in bed and said "Am I awake? Is this real?" I held out my hand and he slapped it and said "It's real."

I got out of bed and saw that K was in the house, not dressed yet, which meant that she would be late for her 8.00 class. The Hubs told her that her grandfather was dead and she started to cry. Shortly after that, he broke down completely, sobbing. At some point, I was facing my mother-in-law, who was dry-eyed. I asked her what she would do now, and she said she would do what she was raised to do: she would go on.

I woke up and looked at the clock. It was 7.05. The house was very quiet; I got out of bed and looked out the window. Both the Hubs' car and K's car were gone. So she had gotten off to class on time, and it really was a dream. I have a history of dreaming in real time and demanding to know if I am asleep or awake and always being reassured that I'm awake. I do not so much like these dreams.

I didn't have real time dreams last night, but I did wake up fully at least three times, each time my face soaked in sweat, and each time pushing myself to wake up so that I could shake what I had just been dreaming.

So my day was just a lot of yawning and eye-rubbing. Hoping to finish the damn 9th grade cards tomorrow. I did a bit of shopping with the Sibs after school today, which was most enjoyable, although I could hardly keep my eyes open. Nails after school tomorrow, with a new manicurist. Not a big deal, I know.

Heroes tonight!

WATCHING LAW & ORDER :: ENTRY #1589