Yeah, well
It seems to take me forever to post an entry every day, and even when I do, I don't much feel like it. So that and a few other things are leading me to believe that I'm sliding into a bit of a depression. Not an earth-shaking matter, it's just good to recognize it as early as possible, if I can. I don't know why, really; it won't become serious enough to take medication, not now, anyway.
When I talked to my cousin the other day, she reminded me of the pact that she and my sister and I entered into some years ago to monitor each other for signs of bipolar behavior, again, to catch it early, if we've got it. I told her that I've got no signs whatsoever of manic behavior -- experience with my mother tells me that it's pretty hard to hide that -- and all I had was the usual sort of depression. We've all got that, to one degree or another.
I think it's connected to my feeling that the summer hasn't really started yet, which of course, it has. I haven't made any concrete plans, other than Gettysburg next week, and I think that's connected to my back hurting. So I made one decision today:
Tomorrow I am calling the chiropractor and making an appointment for this week. (His office is closed on Saturday and open on Sunday, so I should be able to call and get someone there just to make an appointment.) I even wrote it down on a post-it, so I'll do it for sure.
As for whatever else is going on, I don't know, and I'm sure it'll pass. After all, I've got the new Harry movie coming up this week, and the new book the week after that.
I will admit that I've got some apprehension about our upcoming trip. For one, I have apprehensions about traveling in general, which I mentioned recently, and for another, it will be very weird to spend three/four days with the Hubs 24/7. We just don't do that, as a rule. I think if he's going to change his personality 180 degrees -- again -- that I should get a warning well in advance. It's very disruptive to me.
It's probably that, you know.
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Traveling makes me VERY anxious. And I've got to drive from here to Rhode Island next month. However, I've been ignoring the entire idea of the trip and will probably let Kurt plan all of it. That's what we did when we drove from Virginia to here, and it worked well.
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As much as I LOVE being on vacation, it always takes me awhile to ease into it. Because we work so hard during the school year with so many demands, it's difficult to just do NOTHING. (I'm the busiest person in the world even when I'm doing nothing) RELAX. ENJOY. You deserve it.
ReplyDelete24/7? Maybe he'll be a gem - and let you go off by yourself when necessary! :) Seriously, I hope you feel much better and find some happiness and peace during your summer.
ReplyDeleteIntrospective that I am, I don't usually write when I'm depressed -- I mean, I don't publish what I create. But I've come to realize that, most of the time, my depressions are due to some kind of external force, and all I can do is wait until it (or they) passes. But everything does, and I shall look for the good stuff in the meantime.
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