Metacognition, and All It Stands For

[copied from dland]

Some of what it stands for, anyway. When a graduate school professor overused this word a few years ago, I never thought it was anything but more of that education bullshit, another buzz word to throw around. She wanted us to use the process of metacognition constantly, to make it a part of everything we do every day. Because I had the time to add another process to my daily chores.

According to this babe, metacognition means that you should think all the time about how you think. You should understand how you think, why you think the way you do, you should examine every move you make and think about it: why, why, why, why, why, why. This was not my most favorite class ever.

So it was education-ese bullshit. But the truth is, I do think about the way I think. Not so much the why, but I sure am aware of thinking all the time and about the way I do it. The way that I'll usually come up with a logical approach, ever the Vulcan. I can remember things that happened to me way way back, like when I was three or four. Okay, not so strange in this family where pretty much everyone remembers practically back to the womb. But I remember thinking things when I was three or four, and I remember the way I figured things out then, or understood things.

Is that normal, or does it just make me more weird? Does it matter whether I'm normal or weird? I think I like being weird. Sadly, I have always craved normal, too.

I wonder if going to therapy ever really makes you better, or just keeps sending you down different twists the road until one day you're dead. You never do find the end of the road, or maybe that's what the bright light is.

Next time: Heaven, and what I plan to do there


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